after one long season of waiting

dear film
is it that we are not meant to be?
that you are dense at the very core of your being
solid, letting no light through
that once, seeing the light, you let too much in
and are now emo
forever
dark, impenetrable, misunderstood
for even I once believed your problems were a fault
of my own
a matter of degrees

but no, twas not the developer
nor the stop
nor the fix
the timer, or my own errorsome ways

twas you, dear film
dear camera with shutter speeds too slow
(maybe you need cleaned)
holding the light too dear and keeping it for your own
selfish, which is why you are personified
keeping tight the emulsion that should be washed away
by the caring...developer, or fix, or something. maybe water. not too sure about how the process actually works at this point
except the names should give me a clue, so i'll go with developer
developer

but, emo misunderstood negatives,
detail only visible possibly in floodlights,
i wish you were printable
because i had some decent pictures on you
and next week my project's due
and now I'm screw--
ed