Good vs Evil, Innocence vs Experience, PAPER VS VIDEOGAMES

[evilhippo]

I am not quite sure if the world is mocking me, or trying to push me in the right direction... or perhaps it is a test. I got out of track practice today on pity for not having my paper worked on yet, and all I owe my coach is a candybar because he is a good person (he was so nice about me missing practice, it made me really happy). I sat through the meeting about the conference meet this weekend, and I am both glad I'm not going, and sort of sad that I can't. I mean, it's in Cleveland afterall, and I would like to go back to Ohio for a bit. And heck, the girls team has a real honest shot at winning, so I really wish I could be there. On the other hand, they leave at 7 on Thursday, which means I miss a lot of class, and would have to turn in my calc homework at ridiculous o'clock Wednesday, among other things. So... anyway... I got back here at about a quarter after 5 after picking up some Subway and then walking back (I must enjoy this weather while I've got it). I then made the fortunate mistake of checking my e-mail... and there it is. The dreaded, yet thoroughly predicted, package delivery e-mail. This is so obviously a test of my will and my motivation. I am making the best of this (and it's really helping) by telling myself I will finish my paper by 9 or so tonight, since I was lucky enough to be able to skip track, and then play Xenosaga. I've already got 400 words, and they're mostly small ideas that could be fleshed out into decently-sized paragraphs. So what I need are transitions, and a thesis. And then I'm practically done. Right now, this is my 6:00 break. My 7:00 break is for eating, and from 7-9 is all writing and revising. Heck, I might even get done early. Motivation is a wonderful thing. Take that for trying to foil me, world! Bwahahahahaha!

I'm weirdly dizzy right now... I hope I'm not getting the stomach flu of doom again. Or maybe it's that lovely feeling that comes with knowing that you're going to get your paper done before 3AM this time. Woo! (Ok, so I'm insane. At least I speak in complete sentences!)