Boredom and Frustration

[evilhippo]

Yeah, I think I'm going to sleep soon. Tonight's been a rather frustrating night for the past few hours, because I've been trying to comprehend Calculus. It's bothering me so much that I can't even spell the blasted name of the subject anymore. But I think at this point in the night, I should just go to sleep, and let myself dream about the stupid proofs and whatnot. We'll see how it feels in the morning. I should do alright... I've managed good grades on the past two tests, afterall. I should've known this would happen. I was reasonably laid back about all my classes this quarter, just to get a feel of how hard things would be, and now that I know I'm rediculously close to an A in a lot of my classes, I'm putting insane amounts of pressure on myself to do better. It's horrible, the way my mind works. Now I'm going to stress myself out in insane amounts here for the next four years. Darnit. Why did I have to do well? Grrr. So much work involved in doing well, sometimes it just doesn't seem worth it.

So, the fun part of tonight was going to see UT perform Cabaret. I've decided quite definitely that I need theatre back. Need it desperately. I think if I can get away with it, spring quarter I'll audition for something, and if I make it, I'll quit track. I mean, they have to understand, don't they? That I'd rather waste my time doing something I love doing rather than something I'm merely obligated and sort of forced to do. I've got to have some creative outlet in this fun-forsaken school, non? And I've also decided that I love the people involved in UT. They're just... cooler. But that could just be my constant fascination with theatre people. Oh dear goodness I miss my drama club! GAH! Withdrawl! I feel like I'd be far more likely to find my (desperately) needed base of friends here. I just haven't found any good friends yet. It's a shame I'm going to have to wait so long to see some of my high school friends when I get back, too. I fear winter break is going to go far too quickly. At least at the end, and that's the part that matters. Plus I just found out today that I won't get to see my dear San Franciso Art-Schooler until this summer. Well, unless I manage to talk her into visiting me on her way back. Which would be excellent. Even though my friends here would not approve of her at all. But then again, having them not approve of her at all would be a great thing for me, I think. Because I don't approve of some of them. Nya! Take that, hyper-critical people! I'll teach you to insult sketchyheart's artwork! Grrrrness! I'll also teach you to call her a him again and again, even when I correct you! And... and.. grrrrrrr.

I can't wait to get home where I can be silly-sarcastic like I like to be, and not be constantly challenged about my mostly-nontrue, obviously lying statements that people here just don't seem to understand, for some reason.

Comments

[sketchyheart.livejournal.com]

Eh? what's this? Someone over there has been insulting my artwork? May I beat them? *<3s you!*

I can't wait for you to come back.. I have missed you! I like your sister but she's bloody insane! ^__^;

And..

[sketchyheart.livejournal.com]

.. oh yes, i'm glad you think pretty well on your Calculus!

[evilhippo.livejournal.com]

I was looking at all your stuff on DeviantArt and whatnot, when psycho-insane hyper-critical of everything person comes in and says something like "The sides of that are cut off. Tell him next time he can do better" and I'm like.. "What??" "He left off parts of the head. What anime is that from?" And I just sort of stared at him and said "I think it's meant to be like that, considering she drew it and as far as I know, she has full control over her actions." "Well, he could still do better. You should watch anime with me because your friends already do" ... Whatness?? ::BEAT WITH STALE FISH::

Bloody insane is probably the most accurate description of my sister there is. (-;

[sketchyheart.livejournal.com]

Yes. *beat with SLIMEY STALE FISH OF DOOM* Even though i do find that amusing XD *has been permanently rendered male. delivers milk like a good milkman* But I laced it ^____^

[evilhippo.livejournal.com]

His evil comments are amusing at first.. then they get extremely annoying.. and depressing. And then he starts accusing you of being negative all the time, and you really wish there was more stale fish around, because beating him with pool cues and celery just doens't seem to work.

You and your silly drugged milk. But it's sooo tasty. Wee.