Curse those stupid storms keeping me up. I wish I hadn't slept in until ten today, because now I'll never fall asleep. I can barely type, too. Maybe I am actually tired. There's something different about listening to music after midnight. It's nice to sit alone in the dark and just listen, you notice a lot more of what goes in the songs that way. I've noticed that half the songs on my playlist I haven't listened to all the way through are actually pretty good. Or maybe it's because they're different from the ones I overplay. Out of 206 songs, there ought to be something new and interesting every once in a while. Curses, it's 12:30. I guess I'll go off to attempt to go to sleep. Hopefully I won't trip over all the boxes in my room on the way to my bed, and wake up my sister again. Tonight was her first time at work... she's ushering like I did last year. She doesn't seem to mind it much, which is good because she owes me thirty dollars and claims that she'll pay me back. I don't expect it, and even if she gives it to me, it'll likely go towards something for her.
Sigh... I feel so lonely right now. It's not so much that I can't go out anywhere with my friends, which I hardly ever did anyway, it's just that the for doing it is gone. And I've still got three weeks of this. I'm getting all nervous now, too (though that could be because of my medicine and the shot). What the heck have I gotten myself into? I mean, my family just got the bill, and it's 2,700-some dollars, which is insane because that's three quarters of the contibution from me and my family. So much for 100% of my financial need. We can't pay that all at once (actually, we can, but I'll have no money left to cover my share of the computer or my books). The insurance for my stupid track participation is 500 dollars a quarter. If I sneeze, I'll be running to the doctor just to make all that money worth it. Hopefully when my dad's new insurance kicks in in November, we won't have to have it through the UofC for the rest of the year, and all the evil Orientation fees and flex dollars will be off the bill (which is about a thousand). And I'll have my work-study money. I'm so confused about what's going on. Seeing the bill makes me think of how much I'm borrowing, and how much debt I'll have at the end of four years (17 thousand my behind!) and how on earth I'm going to do that and go to grad school. I guess I'll have to go teach in an inner-city school or something. Or flee the country. Do credit ratings follow you to France? Would France hide me from the US loan-debt collectors? I promise to be verily nice to the French if they will. They'd be my best friends. Hooray for France! Maybe I'll spend my last quarter abroad and then neve come back. The government would have paid the money to the University, non? I'm pretty sure in my entrance interviews, they told me the money is owed to the government, but I think it also said something about making payments to the school. Silly things.
Wow, Vanilla Pepsi really has a lingering vanilla odour. Right.. sleep. One more song...
Sigh... I feel so lonely right now. It's not so much that I can't go out anywhere with my friends, which I hardly ever did anyway, it's just that the for doing it is gone. And I've still got three weeks of this. I'm getting all nervous now, too (though that could be because of my medicine and the shot). What the heck have I gotten myself into? I mean, my family just got the bill, and it's 2,700-some dollars, which is insane because that's three quarters of the contibution from me and my family. So much for 100% of my financial need. We can't pay that all at once (actually, we can, but I'll have no money left to cover my share of the computer or my books). The insurance for my stupid track participation is 500 dollars a quarter. If I sneeze, I'll be running to the doctor just to make all that money worth it. Hopefully when my dad's new insurance kicks in in November, we won't have to have it through the UofC for the rest of the year, and all the evil Orientation fees and flex dollars will be off the bill (which is about a thousand). And I'll have my work-study money. I'm so confused about what's going on. Seeing the bill makes me think of how much I'm borrowing, and how much debt I'll have at the end of four years (17 thousand my behind!) and how on earth I'm going to do that and go to grad school. I guess I'll have to go teach in an inner-city school or something. Or flee the country. Do credit ratings follow you to France? Would France hide me from the US loan-debt collectors? I promise to be verily nice to the French if they will. They'd be my best friends. Hooray for France! Maybe I'll spend my last quarter abroad and then neve come back. The government would have paid the money to the University, non? I'm pretty sure in my entrance interviews, they told me the money is owed to the government, but I think it also said something about making payments to the school. Silly things.
Wow, Vanilla Pepsi really has a lingering vanilla odour. Right.. sleep. One more song...