Bof!

Typical Saturday night... typical Saturday mood. I was so freaking bitter this evening it wasn't even funny... but I wasn't surprised considering not only was I sitting in the middle of annoyance city, but I was frustrating myself without abandon. Silly me. What the heck? But kudos to those that managed to un-bitter me (Secretary... weeeeird movie. oh my goodness). Just for fun, today's list of good and bad:

Good: Probably won't have to be on the travelling track team.
Bad A: Sort of embarassed myself.
Bad B: Probably means I won't get to go to UAAs in Cleveland and/or Pittsburgh.

Good: Got to do some serious hair-cutting.
Bad: It's all on tape, along with a good portion of me being severely sarcastic, which I'm sure will do wonders for peoples' impressions of me.

Good: People didn't bug me to drink as much as they did last night.
Bad: I saw yet another sober person fall to the dark side. Insofar as the drinkers here can be considered "the dark side" when they're such happy drunks. Dear goodness I'd be such a bitter drunk. Or a cryptic drunk. And I'm pretty sure this person drank before he got to college too, so it's no big deal. But still... Goshdarnit I hate the way some of these people tuck everyone into stereotypes and then make a huge deal when anyone breaks one. Oh, it just grates on my nerves like nothing else... except maybe the phrases "this piece is a commentary on..." and "what the piece is trying to say is..." Yup.. still bitter. Surprise? No?

Good: Finally got Xenogears downloaded, unzipped, and working (with a few minor tolerable flaws).
Bad: Incredibly frustrating without a proper controller, and very time-consuming.
Corollary: I can't believe I wasn't suspicious of Citan the first time I played this game. Dear goodness he is a shady little man. A shady dorky sort of little man.

Well, I've never been one to turn down Dance Dance, so I will be off.

Well Then

Ah, so I got bored. Really, it all started when I wanted a fourth user picture. And I was bored. Oh dear. I'm going to consider it a slightly late birthday present to myself. Since I'd planned to anyway. Right! Babbling! What a lovely thing for my first entry as a paid user. Don't you go expecting anything different from me now. Nya!

Ah, I do believe I'll be off to fool around with style settings so I can finally get this to look like I want it to. Like, if I cross this right here, with bits of the other one, and that other one I like. Yep.

Hmm...

I think for the benefit of my future sanity, I'm going to try to forget that most of this weekend never happened. I think it just should've stopped after my birthday dinner (and the bit where we did some massive hair-cutting can be added in after). Other than that, it's been a rather evil sort of weekend. Just... no fun, and no time to myself, which is horrid in every sense of the world. I tried to cut myself off by playing games with my headphones on, but I could still hear everyone, and trying to play these things with a keyboard is massively frustrating. So I just had to give up. Which is good, because at the point I was at, I had fallen off of this one cliff so many times that my character was like, ten levels higher than he should've been. Evilness.

So, I suppose I should go do my homework for drama and see if I have stuff for bio. At least I won't have that fiendish evil hour between drama and track tomorrow, since track doesn't start until five. Though, given how things have been working out lately with the buses, I'll miss the one I'm trying to catch and have to wait for half an hour. Yeah, that's the other half of my immense frustration with the world (part of the first half... we'll call it a quarter, is being pushed to the point of automatic annoyance at anything a certain person says). I hate being so frustrated with everything right now. Perhaps subconsciously, my brain is very unhappy about the probability that I'm going to be here nonstop for another six months. My calc final won't get moved this time, which means I'll be here until Thursday of finals week, which leaves me just a bit over a week of spring break. And hardly anyone else is leaving. It's not that I particularly want to stay here, but it's expensive to come home, and not many of my friends are going to be around (and they're going to be in school anyway)... so I'm still not sure if it's worth it.

Maybe I should really stop wasting time and do something constructive. Like my homework. I just have no motivation though. It's an insanely simple assignment... I could probably do it in about ten minutes before I leave in the morning, but that would be a bad idea.

There are some weird noises coming from down the hallway... I'm not sure what to make of them. If I was in a better mood, I'd go investigate, but since I know who it is that's making them, I think I'll just stay in here and try to drown it out in the noise coming from GTA.

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