And one more thing....

[evilhippo]

Also, I hate anime episodes that have a title like "death" or "farewell" or "somebody's gonna die and you're going to have to watch it!" or "Oops, did we just make you think we'd killed one of your favourite characters?"

P.S. I'm still really freaking angry at this school, and the last thing I want to do now is sit down and actually study for physics because I'm feeling freaking bitter right now. I wonder who takes third-year transfers... maybe I should take a year off. I am so freaking sick of this. This is not what I should be doing. I'm starting to think that I don't learn things when I'm being forced to learn them just by listening to boring lectures and stuff. I might as well be teaching myself... I don't learn any physics without reading the book... I don't learn any compsci until I've sat in front of the computer for several hours trying to figure it out for myself... I just don't get it. What is the point of this? What am I still doing here? Why didn't I leave last year? Oh right.. because I had friends here last year. But they all went and freaking transferred, and I didn't. I am so freaking miserable here this year, I can't even put it into words. And just when things are looking up, like maybe I'm getting ahead a bit... no. No not at all. Maybe I should have taken a year off to get some sort of footing under me. I've got no idea where I'm going from here, and that's why I'm not motivated at all. And this university doens't help a bit because it doesn't point you anywhere, and it doesn't encourage you in anything. I'm all about fighting against things that discourage you when something useful lies beyond them, but I don't see anything useful on the distance here, either. I wonder... if I just run off to California over winter break when no one's looking and spend a month begging people out there for a job... that would be fun. That would be a challenge, and I'd learn what I had to learn. Here it's just... meh. It's not worth it. I don't need to know physics, I don't need to know that Aquinas wasn't very font of the Jewish and that he thought rebellion was a mortal sin, and, in almost every technicality, I also don't need to know Scheme. So what is my purpose here right now? I'm going to get a degree here and graduate. Woo. Then I go find some boring office job where they make me write programs in excel or something. Or they just make me do data entry. And I spend my life in a freaking office somewhere.

Comments

[sketchyheart.livejournal.com]

*sends lots of love down on your head, for lack of being able to do much else* :O

[evilhippo.livejournal.com]

Hmmm... it turned into quite a monstrous post considering it was originally about Samurai7, didn't it? ^_^

[sketchyheart.livejournal.com]

Just a bit :D

(and that episode. I cry. silly show >__<)

[rainbowgirl28.livejournal.com]

Transferring is a really big pain in the ass. Trust me, I've done it twice!

[becada422.livejournal.com]

)*: Don't be sad because it makes me sad. I want you to feel better. ::hug:: Don't give up. You are so smart you can do anything no matter what grade some dumb professor gives you.

[evilhippo.livejournal.com]

It's a shame that, for the most part, my professors are nice people... they just grade stupidly. So I can't blame them as much as I blame this stupid university for encouraging them to be evil. (-: