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Ah... can't sleep! And I didn't even sleep in this morning. I think it's... ah, I dunno. I just don't feel like it. I want to be writing, but there's something about writing in word that just hates me right now. It's so much easier to randomly write things in here. So, for your convenience I'm sticking this all behind a cut because it's basically just useless rambling. Probably eventually about that fic that I swear I'm not writing so sketchy should especially not read this because you know, I'd hate for you to spoil anything for yourself or anything because you know in the end I'm going to make you read it anyway. Hehehehe. And also yay to the return of downloading all sorts of useless techno remixes of game music! And yay to even more ringtones. I am so weird sometimes.
These moods are starting to get annoying... I get these random artistic impulses that I then can do nothing about and... grr. Which is probably why I can't sleep. Plus there hasn't been enough for me to do lately. I imagine tomorrow I'll go buy some of my Sosc books, and probably even end up reading some of them for the heck of it because I've got nothing better to do. I mean, just to engage myself I've switched to watching only the raw Naruto episodes when I can. I'd watch just the raw FMA too, if it wasn't so gosh-darn freaking complicated (but I love it for that, anyway).
Argh, so really my problem here is this monster of a fic I've come up with here, which is sort of half parody and half taking itself seriously... as seriously as something with as seriously screwed up a premise as this thing has. But right now I'm not sure which way I want to point the characters. I've finally got the notes I wrote down while I was at work, but now I'm not sure if I want to do that. Because that way the two Hughes..es are basically the same. But I'm leaning more towards an evil-Hughes now, which would be fun to write and sort of creepy. But then you're thoroughly into the out-of-character thing and other people don't find it as fun. So maybe I'll write two versions (that wouldn't be unusual for me.. you should see all my entrance essays). Arr, I just can't get restarted now, since I got into it right before I was leaving, and now a lot of time has passed. I hate it when I do that. My writing style can't possibly change that fast... so I should be able to get back into it sort of quickly. I think I'm more afraid of posting it up and leaving it open to other peoples' random comments. But ah well, it should be a fun thing. It's not like I'm taking myself entirely seriously anyway. So why worry? Ah, I guess I'll try to get back into it again, and if not I'll try again in the morning. I'm super tempted to sleep on the couch tonight, for whatever reason. Probably because after this I've only got one more night by myself in here, then everyone else moves in and things will be noisy and busy again. I've actually really started to like being in here by myself... it's quite nice. It was scary at first, but now I'm afraid I'm a little too fond of it. I've got the whole couch to myself.. the coffee table is my desk.. my stuff's scattered all around the bedroom and bathroom. Almost all the food in the fridge is mine for the taking (which reminds me I'd better make those portabella pizzas soon). So... I'm gonna go brush my teeth, then come back out here, sit down again, try writing, and maybe go to sleep. Or maybe I'll just go straight to sleep. Maybe the problem is that I'm just really tired from getting up for that silly little meeting of ours today. Ahhhh!
These moods are starting to get annoying... I get these random artistic impulses that I then can do nothing about and... grr. Which is probably why I can't sleep. Plus there hasn't been enough for me to do lately. I imagine tomorrow I'll go buy some of my Sosc books, and probably even end up reading some of them for the heck of it because I've got nothing better to do. I mean, just to engage myself I've switched to watching only the raw Naruto episodes when I can. I'd watch just the raw FMA too, if it wasn't so gosh-darn freaking complicated (but I love it for that, anyway).
Argh, so really my problem here is this monster of a fic I've come up with here, which is sort of half parody and half taking itself seriously... as seriously as something with as seriously screwed up a premise as this thing has. But right now I'm not sure which way I want to point the characters. I've finally got the notes I wrote down while I was at work, but now I'm not sure if I want to do that. Because that way the two Hughes..es are basically the same. But I'm leaning more towards an evil-Hughes now, which would be fun to write and sort of creepy. But then you're thoroughly into the out-of-character thing and other people don't find it as fun. So maybe I'll write two versions (that wouldn't be unusual for me.. you should see all my entrance essays). Arr, I just can't get restarted now, since I got into it right before I was leaving, and now a lot of time has passed. I hate it when I do that. My writing style can't possibly change that fast... so I should be able to get back into it sort of quickly. I think I'm more afraid of posting it up and leaving it open to other peoples' random comments. But ah well, it should be a fun thing. It's not like I'm taking myself entirely seriously anyway. So why worry? Ah, I guess I'll try to get back into it again, and if not I'll try again in the morning. I'm super tempted to sleep on the couch tonight, for whatever reason. Probably because after this I've only got one more night by myself in here, then everyone else moves in and things will be noisy and busy again. I've actually really started to like being in here by myself... it's quite nice. It was scary at first, but now I'm afraid I'm a little too fond of it. I've got the whole couch to myself.. the coffee table is my desk.. my stuff's scattered all around the bedroom and bathroom. Almost all the food in the fridge is mine for the taking (which reminds me I'd better make those portabella pizzas soon). So... I'm gonna go brush my teeth, then come back out here, sit down again, try writing, and maybe go to sleep. Or maybe I'll just go straight to sleep. Maybe the problem is that I'm just really tired from getting up for that silly little meeting of ours today. Ahhhh!
