Hmph...

I suppose there are worse times to not be able to sleep. It's not like I need to be entirely awake tomorrow morning when I go turn in my final paper for Hum. I just have to cross my fingers and hope that I get a B or so on it so I don't... ah I give up. The chances of me not getting a B- this quarter are about the same as me getting some sort of A this quarter. I hate this quarter, and I am glad it's almost over. I can't wait to come home. I miss everyone so much! When I get back, I am going to throw some sort of giant party and we'll all go out to eat and then... who knows. I'll catch everyone up on everything and we can laugh about stuff and not have to worry about people not getting our jokes and explaining the inside jokes and scoffing at us for just acting goofy. We can get our wands and invisibility cloaks out again and go see Harry Potter. We can all stop everyone from choking now. I can get mocked for my massive collection of anime, but at least I'll know that it's not because of some bizarre prejudice against it and the people that watch it. And most of all I won't have to worry about pushy people putting themselves between me and the friends I hardly ever see anymore. It's so horrible to have friends at home that you miss and friends at school that you miss because they hardly come around anymore, you know? It freaking sucks. And after this year, there is a chance that I'm not ever going to see some of my good female friends here again. Suure, my roomie claims that she'll come visit us at the end of autumn quarter next year... I suppose I trust her. But it's just so weird. I'm going to miss her so much... I don't think I could have gotten a better roomie this year. Rooming with real "UofC-type" people is going to be weird next year, but at least I've got pretty much easy-going people.

I think the stress of this week is really getting to me, and that's why I can't sleep. I really didn't get that much sleep last night, either... I hope I don't end up so horribly worn out by the end of this week that I have to spend days sleeping. I think when I was officially done with things last year I probably slept for like, twelve hours. And the end of senior year wasn't even stressful. Gah.

At least I'm getting something done on my PhiloSci paper. I think tomorrow between when I turn my paper in at nine and when I got to lunch at like, eleven I'll do research for my Civ paper so I don't feel so paranoid about getting it done. Then after lunch I'll work on studying for my Calculus. I'll do that as long as I can stand it, then sit around for a bit and relax. Then I'll go to dinner, and when I get back I'll do a bit of work on my PhiloSci paper and then study for Calc until about midnight. I'll kick everyone out of the room and then go to bed... and get up around 8:30 or so, go over things a little bit, and then go take my final at 10:30. And I will get through it and not freak out. I will understand most of it. Then, after the final's over, I'll go to the Reg and see how much writing I can get done. Or I'll head back to the dorm and relax a bit and then go to the Reg and see how much writing I can get done. Either way.... Wednesday I'll finish up my PhiloSci paper and turn it in by 1:30 or 3 or so... sometime during the normal class time. And then start real serious work on my Civ paper. I'll get some sleep Wednesday night and then work on my Civ paper most of Thursday. If things look bad, I'll pull an all nighter until Friday, turn in my paper at 10:30, and then start packing. There... wow. It feels so much better to just have the entire week planned out like that. Ohhhh. See? Now that I look at it like this it doesn't look like I've got that much of a problem.

"Exausted from oversleep... awake but still in bed..."

Right. I am so tired I can't even type straight, so this is going to be a sort entry. I have had to type that sentence like, three times. Today, I have done a bit of PhiloSci writing and a whole heck of a lot of Calc-cramming. But I will rejoice tomorrow (for a brief period) after my exam is done with. Then I'll have to come back here and watch my roomie move out (gah!), and then get back to work on my papers. Freaking Philosci paper. Freaking people that checked out the books I need from the Reg (I'll just have to use others). I am almost done though... Ah yes, almost done.

My schedule for next year isn't looking nearly as fun as I thought it would. I threw in a lot of random stuff that I wanted to take more than Chem and French, and I got thrown into both. There's still a chance I could get into the Ficton class of course, because that's based on writing submissions, and I've got all summer to work on that. There is no earthly way I'm taking Chem next year though, because I would have three classes on MWF, plus labs. I would die, I think. Completely and utterly die. Though I don't think there would be quite as much writing. I don't imagine there's a final paper for my CompSci class, at least. Hehehe.

Well, looks like I'll just get up a little early tomorrow and do some last-minute reviewing... hope for the best. Then I can go back to worrying about PhiloSci and Civ. I think if I hit my stride on my Civ paper it'll get done fairly quickly tomorrow, and then I can worry about Civ all I want for like, two whole days instead of just one. If I had the time to do that, I'd be thoroughly happy. Well... afterwards at least, because I'd be able to feel like I'd had enough time to put into the paper. I can't afford for my Civ paper to suck, as much as I tended to dislike the class. Grr to this school! Worst quarter ever! I hope I never have a quarter like this again.