This is what they said...

Wow, it's been an awful long time since I last listened to all my bizarre MP3s. Ah well. I'm feeling sort of out of things to write, since I've been scribbling in my notebook pretty much all morning. I've decided (again) that I'm going to learn to draw this quarter. I am getting better... just not by a whole lot. And what's good depends entirely on chance. I also need to figure something out that will wake me up enough in the morning to pay attention in Hum. That class just puts me to sleep, no matter how wide awake I am in the morning, and I feel especially bad this quarter because I like the professor... he's really into and and I'm still sitting there making a very obvious effort to keep my eyes open and my head up. I haven't had this much trouble since the few days in sophomore english when I'd have stayed out late the night before at a concert or something. And that was on like, five hours of sleep. This is on 8. What the heck? Maybe if I walk to class every morning... but that takes like, half an hour and it's all cold out. So I'd have to get up even earlier, and I'd always leave late, which would mean I'd probably get to class late, or exhaust myself trying to run there. I get enough exercise at track.

In other news... my mom sent the computer controller today. Which means I should get it by the end of the week, so I can try playing Xenogears again without the massive frustration that comes from trying to control the thing with the keyboard, where the directional keys are all right-handed and the actions are left-handed so whenever I try to jump I end up pressing the jump button and the up button, which screws me all up. Silly me and my incompetance. And I'm sure you love reading this.

Looks like the next two days in my room are going to be very... interesting. My roomie's bringing over even more guests, which will mean a total of five people (besides us) housed in our room. Insanity! We're still trying to figure out where we're going to put all of them. I think we've got enough possibilities that things will work out. Even if I have to move back down the hall and sleep over with hisspit... this is a possibility that she is not yet aware of, methinks. There was also the possibility of my roomie and her boyfriend moving in to my arch nemesis' room down the hall here, but we figured no matter who we moved in down there would cause him to freak out. Unless it was me... but we won't even go into that.

I had a really weird night last night... I kept waking up at bizarre times like 4am and 5:30, then again at 7:30. And I would be wide awake... I'd get up, get a drink of water, and then lay back down and go right back to sleep. It was confusing. I also kept fussing with my sheets. Then I actually managed to have several weird dreams that I can only remember tiny bits of. It was like the longest night ever, but in a good way (except I still managed to be tired in Hum). In one of my dreams someone had stolen a tour bus and I was in it and we were driving around the parking lot of my high school. That's pretty much I remember of it. Then later on I had a dream that I was someplace in the south, and chocolatemoose was coming to visit me, and some lady that was supposed to be her aunt kept telling me that she was going to have to be late, but she'd be there eventually, and I was standing in some sort of parking lot in front of Wal Mart or something, but Wal Mart had a porch. Really I guess it was more like some sort of sporting goods store now that I think about it... but anyhoo... she eventually showed up and I started going on about how, since we were somewhere in the south, we should go visit antipixie and have all the weirdos together. It was sort of weird... Then I got up at 7:30 and thought, huh, I've only got fifteen more minutes before I have to get up, and then it just felt like it took an hour for my alarm to go off. I don't mind the time going really really slowly today, though... except as far as Hum was concerned. I wonder if I could talk the prof into letting us have a little break in the middle, just so I could get up and maybe walk around to wake myself up. We always run over, too, so I have to sit in the back of the class in calc, which is very detrimental to my attention to the lecture, because I can just sit back there and doodle in the margins and write down random things in my notebook like I did today. Sad thing is, I didn't really miss any of the notes, either. Hooray multitasking!

Ah, I should probably find something else to do for the next hour before I have to go to my Bio discussion. Oh! And my problem session for calc on Wednesday was moved to 7:30, so I get another day of the week where I actually get to eat dinner! Woo! I need to remember to e-mail the guy on our floor in charge of that food-points for the homeless thing though, because I'll probably have even more than fifty meal points left over this quarter. Eep.

Laziness...

Well, my roomie's companions are here. I guess that means I'm probably going to give up my usual computer-related activities (aka reading pointless things and playing around in Paint and... obviously... writing here all the time) for now and maybe do my actual reading for class tomorrow. I hope I'll be able to find my reading for drama. Heh. I never know quite what's going on in that class. Not that it really matters. Right now I'm sort of debating whether I want to transcribe my paper-entries right into this, or make seperate backdated posts for them... in the latter case, chances of them being completely forgotten about are rather greater. But then again, they are only from today. Huh. Well, last entry I pretty much summarized half of them, so I might as well just finish them up here...

10:30am (Calc class):
I sort've wish I could just sit here and write during this class. I'm rather bored just taking notes. Though, not as bad as in Media Aesthetics... I feel really bad, because I keep almost falling asleep, even though I'm usually wide awake when I get up. I kept getting up at ood hours last night, like (skipping, already wrote all this)... Well, I'd better stop writing and pay attention. Getting out of Hum so late seems to be rather bad for my attention span in here.
11:16am (break during Calc):
I wish I could draw... (OK, so I was doodling in my margins again... I wish I could scan the bizarre things I sit there and draw... badly, I might add) I wish all my classes weren't an hour and a half or longer. I wish I had a longer attention span. Oh well. Just about a half-hour of class left. And I look forward to not starving on Wednesdays, because my problem session's at 7:30 now, rather than 6. Yay!
2:25pm (On the bus, which I rode around in a big circle after I realized somewhere near the lab school that my Bio problem session is Thursday, not Tuesday):
-I think the logical bit of me still entertains the daydreaming, creative, whimsical part of me because it finds the meanderings too amusing. Like now... (this merits explanation, but I'm not going to explain to you what was going on! Nya!) Or when I decided I should be a Jedi and it finally occured to me while walking back to my lunch table how it was a completely insane thing to do, but I'd been doing it all day already without it bothering me at all. So, next time I'm down in one of those awwful depressive moods, I wonder what I'll decide to be...
-I guess I'm the sort of person that would give the shirt off their back to help someone. This occured to me while I was sitting at lunch and offered to sleep in the chair if people wanted my bed tonight. I was reprimanded for such thinking, though. But it's a wonder more guys don't stalk me, because not only would I be around to help out if they were in a bind, they'd get to see me topless. This is the sort of thinking I'd like to supress. Perhaps it's best that I don't mention this ever again.
-I think subconsciously I believe that if I keep writing, I'll hit on that one bit of me that I seem to be searching for. Or maybe piece together who it is that I really am.

Woo introspection. Today has all been reading and wandering aimlessly and such. But really now I think I need to find my actual assignments. And do less of randomly finding things like this. No.. actually, I definitely need to find more random things like that. I should have seen as soon as I fixed my sister's playstation no good would come of it. I should have just left the game in its little plastic box. But I suppose it was an inevitable consequence.

Abuse of Power

I've got to do something with this paid account that I couldn't do before... aside from having an inordinate number of icons now. Woo. So, I now present to you pointless poll number 1, based partly on a rather amusing book I was given for my birthday. Yay!

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